It’s 3am and I’m alone.

The day went by too fast and now I don’t know what to do.

I’m thinking about you.

I’m always thinking about you.

I couldn’t stop so I bought this whiskey but there’s never enough.

It’s these nights alone, when I have to ask why wasn’t I enough?

Did I love too much?

Did I treat you badly?

I don’t think so but with you gone I guess I’ll never know.

I miss you, what a stupid text.

I need to get some goddamn self respect.

I can’t though,

you’re all I hoped I’d find.

I’m alone here, all broke inside

How fucking pathetic.

It’s 3am and I’m alone.

Biweekly Book Pick

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So I’m going to try and post a short synopsis/reason why you should read a particular book every two weeks. So that’s the definition of biweekly that we are going to go with since there’s two and that’s a little confusing for no reason. Love the English language it’s great. That being said, here we go!

All the Bright Places

via Penguin Random House

We do not remember days, we remember moments

Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

I don’t want to give anything away, but I think this quote does a lot to sum up not the plot of this book but the way it makes the reader feel (at least in my case). The moments spent between these characters build such an emotional connection between the reader and the work. as you read, you travel through these experiences with them in a way not often felt in other books. The weight of the moments within this books are felt, often deeply. I still remember where I was, and how I felt the first time I finished Chapter 53.

The writing style is beautiful, and at times thought provoking. The mind of someone as broken but strong as Finch resonates and when you are able to see the world through his eyes it becomes a magical place. However, this isn’t a story made of rainbows and cupcakes. I have to warn some that the major themes include suicide and depression.

sometimes there’s beauty in the tough words—it’s all in how you read them.

Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

This is the juxtaposition created by the book. The beauty of love and all its promise, and the cold uneasiness that grows throughout. When I first began reading, I was worried that it would romanticize depression, but it doesn’t. It shows all the terrible anxiety, the way it seems to swallow you up until nothing remains. As someone who has had many friends, as well as personally dealt with depression I found this to be a mostly accurate portrayal.

All the Bright Places is being adapted to a film! The movie is coming out later in 2019 and stars Elle Fanning, and Justice Smith. Elle Fanning has starred in other movies such as Super 8 and Maleficent. Justice Smith recently starred in Detective Pikachu. Since we all know how adaptations go, I’m a bit cautious with my excitement, but Jennifer Niven is working on the film I have some hope.

Overall, All the Bright Places is an amazing read that will have you sitting up at 3:00 AM eyes stinging as you push on till the end. If anyone does read it comment your thoughts or shoot me an email.

Editor Suggestions for drinks when you have been dumped

Take this advice at your own risk because we are a real emotional bunch

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  1. Whiskey neat

If I have to go through a break up, I want the burn so it has to be just straight whiskey. Another reason, is that it’ll give me confidence. Now that confidence is important, that way I can either punch someone in the face or flirt with someone better than my ex.


If I ever was dumped, I would drink whiskey neat. It’s bitter and it burns just like I would be feeling. Its also straight to the point which I wish that relationship could have been. Oh, and it would keep me warm at night since they won’t be anymore.

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2. Vodka, a lot of it.

If you can’t remember who they were, then you can’t remember to be sad about it. Kidding, kinda?


I always drink vodka because I’m not a great drinker and it really hurts when I drink it. Then I can focus on that pain instead of the terrible, terrible emotional pain.


Well I’ve been dating my girlfriend for five years… that being said, I would definitely drink vodka. More specifically something like Everclear. Like I would have absolutely no idea what to do after losing such a strong bond.

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3. Tequila

I drink tequila, but only in margaritas. Tequila really works well because I don’t want to forget about them, but I do want to have a good cry. Sometimes it’s nice to just get it out and embrace your emotions. Also, you can get some great food while you just have a meltdown.

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4. Creme Liquor

I always go with creme Liquor. I absolutely hate the taste to be honest, but I have a really big travel mug and you can mix it with coffee. You can walk around campus all day just avoiding those emotions. Although I do not advise doing this during finals, that was a poor choice.

– Samesunsets
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5. Water

It’s okay to drink and not feel those emotions or in MT’s case embrace them, but eventually you have to move on. At some point you have to pick yourself up and start moving forward. It doesn’t have to be right now, but you will have to eventually. Also you can start drinking water and working out so you look hot af.

– all editors… (excluding Samesunsets, he’s a sad boi)